I made it through my entire first day of being single in the past five years!!! I didn't even cry until night time when I had time to realize how much I miss S still. I know it will take time but I am proud of myself for the way I have handled this situation. 
It is time to start over. I am still most definitely in love with him, I will always love him, but I have to move on. If we are meant to be together our lives will cross paths later on in life and maybe things will be different. But for now this is how it is and I will not let what has happened bring me down. I am strong and confident!!!